Don't ruin the chance that you got to find a new one

Wow, it's really been only a month. I feel so much different since then. I've been working from Mon-Thurs. It's kind of fun, but I'm mostly happy to be getting a paycheck. Within that month my 360 has broken and has to be repaired, I've gone tubing on a friend's boat, finished a couple of books and expanded on my music library. I think I might've gone from 700 to 800 songs in a week from the guster songs i got sent. And I'm actually still missing an album.

I just finished reading Salem's Lot by Stephen King. This guy is an amazing writer. My favorite quote out of that book was something like "The world is falling down around our ears and you're sticking at a few vampires."

I have found a new anthem for my life. Not that it replaces the old one (Better Place, Better Time). It is Dance Floor Anthem by Good Charlote. There aren't really any memorable lines to this song. But the way the beat and lyrics combine together kinda help deliver the message and attitude of defiance and resistance.

She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s trippin' on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin' it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She don’t care

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love

He was always giving her attention
Working hard to buy the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
By most suckers hated
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him

She calls him up
She’s tripping on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain’t comin' home now
He’s tryin' to forget her
That’s how we come with him
When he first met her
When they first got together
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love

To the beat (x3)
You got nothing to lose
Don’t be afraid to get down

We break up
It’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay, let it go
Get out there and find someone
It’s too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire
You know everything is good here
Stop what you’re doin'
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
find a new one

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Now you know what to do, so come on feelin' good

I've been doing some thinking about who I have for heroes. Pretty much no one. I don't really look up to anyone. I kind of just try to uphold my own morals and ideals. I'm not even trying to set an example for other people or anything. I don't really imagine myself being the hero that will save the world. Of course I always think about it. All the gratitude I'd get. I laugh at that stuff cause I'm so naive about it. Not to sound self-centered but the only person I look up to is myself. I know I can make the right choices (whether I do that is another matter). Not every hero is perfect after all.