all around me are familiar faces, worn out places, worn out faces

it's been sixth months since the last time i wrote anything on this blog. i've been writing in my own private little journal as of late. i stopped blogging i think in the first place because i didn't want to leave stuff out that were important in my life at the time.

it's the middle of the school year. it's had some awesome ups and shitty downs, but i guess you just gotta keep going.

i felt kinda crappy today. mostly from having to go through an hour or so worth of track practice. we didn't really do anything, just ran, of all things. I forget who it was, but someone said i was having "male pms." that and something about it usually happening when guys are having girl troubles. she seriously could've been making that up, but the irony kinda hit me like some annoying bastard who won't stop tapping you on the shoulder to get your attention. seems like i can't quite let go of some ghosts.

having a study hall period, ive realized, sucks. if i stay in the classroom, im bored. however, we do get the choice to sign out and be bored in the library. i might start hanging out in the lunch room more often that period. what a badass, right?

i think i've grown up a lot over the past year. i've matured past most of the people i go to school with. no offense to some of you guys, but i mean, how old do you have to be to still get a kick out of making up funny ways to say "vagina," and throw food wrappers at random girls for attention. Also i'd like to mention that whoever pisses on the bathroom floor, you know who you are, take me aside one day and try to explain to me the joke behind stomping around in your own piss. i could make a list of all the stupid things people do for attention, but then some people may start to catch on and hate me for it. also i may start to realize i fall into a couple of my own categories, being the hypocrite i am sometimes.

if i may, id like to take something from the zero punctuation series thing ive been obsessed with and say that i can't really begrudge any of these guys, at this point, it's just what they do, it's like begrudging a dog for licking it's own balls.

im kinda worried about next year. cause most of the people i hang out with are leaving next year. i see them in like stage crew and track and stuff, and most of the time, its a pretty fun time. i dont really have that kind of group of friends in my grade.

oh well, it's not tomorrow, and that's all i should be thinking about for now. there's always hope, but you can't look too far ahead, otherwise you might miss what you're looking for. (i have a feeling ive said this a lot, either to myself, or to other people)